this year, I am full up with fire— do not mistake this for burning

I did not intend to do this, or I would've done it before the hey-I'm-back post. But I was thinking about it, and I think it might be easier for me to come back with a fresh start. Partly because I often tend to scroll back trying to remember something I said previously about a thing, and there's a lot on this journal that it's not super-great to run back into, and partly just cause... I don't know. Change feels good.

I'm gonna be moving to echoscometorest over the next couple days. Feel free to add me, or I will start adding people probably tomorrow, because right now I'm just eating and then going back to playing Fall Guys until I bed down. XD

I am also switching my writing stuff to a new comm -- at least original stuff, I'm trying to decide if I want to add fic lists/fic challenges as well -- so if you're interested in following along as I sort through that, also feel free to join me at wordfall.

Soooo... that was not me coming back to Dreamwidth.

I have spent the last couple of months dealing with depression, dealing with family's issues, handling my cat getting sick (turns out she has food allergies, all is better now), and on the plus side, running tabletop and doing some extensive worldbuilding reworking for original stuff.

So I continue to be sporadic, but I also love you all and will try to catch up soon.

Unrelatedly -- so for a few years on and off now I've talked about wanting to put together a group to watch some favorite seasonal Halloween movies. I finally said fuck it this year, and made a Discord server. I'll be putting on movies on alternate Tuesday and Sundays (to line up with brother's work schedule and get some privacy), starting tonight if people feel like hanging out. Anyone 18+ (because I don't want to judge what's appropriate for minors; my standards are not necessarily anyone else's and I just don't want that headache) is welcome, so here is an invite link if anyone wants to come hang out.

Brief RL update: Packing is going okay, everyone is trying, my mother's mostly managed to get on even keel and we're working with Q's outbursts of emotion. I am tired all the time, disappointed I could not fix things, working a lot, and relying on distractions to keep from getting lost in my own head.

On that note: WandaVision is maybe the best thing I have watched in years and I say that not because there haven't been other good things but because it's just so good.

( Spoilers through episode five. )

So 2020 ended with news that the landlord is selling the house my family currently lives in.

We really need help. Every option possible requires money that we don't have. We want to stay here and buy this house if we can, but we need money. We want to move to a house we can buy, but then we need money for that and for moving. If we can't do that we need to find a place to rent and that also will take a bunch of money, to move and pay deposits and such.

For a whole list of reasons that I won't go into here but people who've been around for a while might recognize, we don't have that money. And we need help, badly. I know this is a bad time for everyone and nobody has a lot of extra money, but there is a gofundme, because we're in bad states. If you can look, or share, or donate even a little, I will be more grateful than I can ever put into words.

The gofundme is here. This post is public, if you want to link to it instead. I also put up posts on tumblr and my public twitter, if you'd rather just hit a button. (I'm considering facebook, but I literally have two people on there, so I don't know yet, but if you think you'd be able to spread it around there, fuck it, let me know and I'll throw it up.)

(My mother and brothers are also spreading it around their social networks, too, hence the use of my legal first name for once. I swear it is actually me.)

Please help me spread this if you can. We all have issues that are going to make moving really hard (we have an elderly dog most landlords will probably turn away, all four of us have anxiety, my brother is diagnosed autistic and I probably am, my mother and I both have physical issues) (Also, selfishly, I really don't want a second emergency move less than six months after my last one. But that's a lesser consideration than the rest of it.) and if we can somehow manage to work this out and stay here it would be an absolute miracle.

Dear Chocolatier,

Thank you for making me something! (Or considering it, if you're a potential treater!) I have a lot of likes and prompt ideas following, but please don't feel constrained by what's here (besides DNWs). Everything I've requested are things I'd absolutely love to see anything for, so if you have something in mind, please go ahead and make the thing you're thinking of! That said, if you're looking for help or inspiration, hopefully something here will give you a nudge.

All requests are for both fic and art! For ships where I am requesting both & and /, I'm putting prompts together, because most of them I'd be happy with the same prompts for either version. Some ships (especially tiny ones, or ones I've been into longer) and some prompts got longer than others, but absolutely every prompt is one I want, and every ship I'm requesting is something I'm happy with any and all content for. I can't wait to see what you come up with. :)

( Letter! )

1. NaNo final total: 30,724! I definitely expect writing to slow down a little, but I have goals for December, and I already wrote today.

I'm vaguely considering signing up for GYWO or inkingitout for next year, but I'm not sure. Both of their lowest tiers is 75k, which is a little less than double what I've done this year, so I think I might be able to do it if I keep as I've been going, but I keep warbling between thinking something to keep track on might be nice and actually keep me going, and worrying that the extra pressure might end up stopping me.

2. I probably do not need to link the Elliot Page news. Usually stuff like this just kind of gets me going "oh cool" in passing, but this one is hitting me surprisingly deep (in a good way) for some reason. I don't know if it's it being someone who I recognize and whose work I know this time around, or if I'm just particularly full of identity feelings lately, or what, but I just keep seeing things about of it and getting little happy-flail waves of this person is like me, how awesome is that?

3. We had our first snow yesterday! It snowed pretty much all day. I am cold enough that I'm wearing two sweatshirts, but I'm loving it. :D

And now: December Talking Meme!

Dec 01: In an ideal world, what would you be doing with your life? (from forests_of_fire)

( Since I've already rambled, I'll cut even though this isn't that long. )

December meme list -- there's 23 open days still, including the next few. If I don't get more questions, I'm still going to try to post at least most days, though I have no idea what. Dragging up one of the other questions, or maybe I'll show some of my bullet journal spread stuff, because I like how December's stuff turned out. We'll see what I'm up for tomorrow.

I am aware that I generally fall flat on my face at this, but the bullet journal has been giving me a better shot at keeping up with things, and it might help me get back to checking DW more often, so let's give it a shot.

So! Pick a day (if you want) and give me a question or a topic to talk about! Or multiple days and multiple questions/topics! I'll go for whatever you'd like to see me ramble on and at least give it a stab, but fandom/media consumption, writing, witchcraft/spirituality, and Tarot are always good topics. General real life, random questions, or really, just about anything also works.

( The list. )

I was just going to comment on the recthething Thursday post, but I wanted more room to ramble. I've been marathon-reading various tags that don't necessarily go together for the last couple of weeks, so have some completely unthemed, slightly disjointed recs, for Les Miserable (all Les Amis-centric and modern AUs, largely Combeferre ships) and Netflix's Daredevil (all Jack Murdock centric).

( 7 Les Mis fics, 4 Daredevil fics )