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fullupwithfire) wrote2020-10-26 03:49 am
fullupwithfire) wrote2020-10-26 03:49 am
General update + also a game note.
Second part first: If anyone is playing Among Us, my brothers and I are trying to arrange to have ten people to play together during brother's days off on Tuesday and Wednesday. We don't have a time, specifically, although given our schedules probably evening-ish CST, and we're debating voice chat via Discord but not married to it. If anyone's interested, give me a poke? (Me + the boys is 3, so we need 7 more; they're talking to a few people, too.)
And beyond that, general updates:
- I am settling in at my mother's. I'm sore as fuck and she has some stuff going on, so I still need to start pulling stuff out of the garage, get my stuff in place, and really settle, but I am here and dealing. I sort of keep ping-ponging between being emotionally fine and it being A Lot, and I feel like I haven't really dealt with a lot of it yet, but today's been a decent day, so.
- I am currently tentatively plotting to non-officially non-properly NaNo, by which I mean try to write about 50k words of fic in November, mostly Umbrella Academy fic, and hopefully mostly over chatting with my sisterthing who is also doing this. I am... tentatively excited? I'm 7k into a fic I think is coming out okay and I have a bunch of ideas, so, tentatively excited and thinking I might manage a decent amount of words. Also, since, like, late September I've been sitting down and managing to write, like, 2k words in a day instead of my usual struggle to even hit 500, so that's a good sign. It's slowed down a little this week, mostly cause I'm not sure what to write, but still. Hopeful.
- At some point in October, I started using the Forest app, that one where you set timers, and if you avoid touching your phone during them, they grow trees. Despite playing on my phone never being my problem, it's actually helped A Lot -- something about the combo of knowingly setting the timer and some immediate effect if I fail, even if that's as silly as a picture of a dead tree, helped to keep me on task a lot this month.
- Partly inspired by this I am setting up my bullet journal to try to start using again in November. It's been A While, but if nothing else, trying to be organizational is kind of making me feel good. Also I stuck inspirational and happy stickers on the inside back covers! (Ace dino, SJ Tucker "Persist, Resist, and Bloom" sticker, Mountain Goats "I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me". And the inside front has "I know my value".) We'll see how long I stick with it, but again, I have vague hopes.
- I can sort of feel myself wanting to crawl out of isolation and talk to people very badly. but I continue to be, you know, bad at that. So it's going rough, and we'll see how it fares in the upcoming months.
- I feel as if I am forgetting things, but it's 4 am and I am hungry. I'm going to get something to eat and then try to get some sleep, and we'll see what comes tomorrow.
And beyond that, general updates:
- I am settling in at my mother's. I'm sore as fuck and she has some stuff going on, so I still need to start pulling stuff out of the garage, get my stuff in place, and really settle, but I am here and dealing. I sort of keep ping-ponging between being emotionally fine and it being A Lot, and I feel like I haven't really dealt with a lot of it yet, but today's been a decent day, so.
- I am currently tentatively plotting to non-officially non-properly NaNo, by which I mean try to write about 50k words of fic in November, mostly Umbrella Academy fic, and hopefully mostly over chatting with my sisterthing who is also doing this. I am... tentatively excited? I'm 7k into a fic I think is coming out okay and I have a bunch of ideas, so, tentatively excited and thinking I might manage a decent amount of words. Also, since, like, late September I've been sitting down and managing to write, like, 2k words in a day instead of my usual struggle to even hit 500, so that's a good sign. It's slowed down a little this week, mostly cause I'm not sure what to write, but still. Hopeful.
- At some point in October, I started using the Forest app, that one where you set timers, and if you avoid touching your phone during them, they grow trees. Despite playing on my phone never being my problem, it's actually helped A Lot -- something about the combo of knowingly setting the timer and some immediate effect if I fail, even if that's as silly as a picture of a dead tree, helped to keep me on task a lot this month.
- Partly inspired by this I am setting up my bullet journal to try to start using again in November. It's been A While, but if nothing else, trying to be organizational is kind of making me feel good. Also I stuck inspirational and happy stickers on the inside back covers! (Ace dino, SJ Tucker "Persist, Resist, and Bloom" sticker, Mountain Goats "I am gonna make it through this year if it kills me". And the inside front has "I know my value".) We'll see how long I stick with it, but again, I have vague hopes.
- I can sort of feel myself wanting to crawl out of isolation and talk to people very badly. but I continue to be, you know, bad at that. So it's going rough, and we'll see how it fares in the upcoming months.
- I feel as if I am forgetting things, but it's 4 am and I am hungry. I'm going to get something to eat and then try to get some sleep, and we'll see what comes tomorrow.