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fullupwithfire) wrote2018-09-15 11:14 pm
fullupwithfire) wrote2018-09-15 11:14 pm
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This year, I am full up with fire-- do not mistake this for burning;
First post!
I'm not going to bother to do a more indepth about me, because 1) I am so bad at explaining myself without rambling ridiculous amounts about everything ever, and 2) I expect that at least for now, almost everybody I add is coming from the old journal. But I like to do something that feels like, I don't know, marking the change, when I start new journals, and I have thoughts on this so -- instead I'm going to talk about goals. Specifically things I'd like to be better at talking about on here, and things I'd like to do online more in general.
So here goes:
First of all, I want to take more pictures. This is a thing I've had feelings about for ages now, but every time I try I just... fall flat. For some reason, I have some real brain blocks up about taking pictures of my life, and especially of myself; and then I regret the fact that I have none, or that I don't document special occasions or things I want to remember. It's a strange, complicated thing in my brain, but I want to do it.
I'm kind of hoping that with everything changing, with the new apartment and new places and all that, I can make myself do this a little bit. Even if I don't know how great I'll be at taking pictures of myself, I'd like to at least try to have pictures of things around me, sometimes.
On a tangential and non-online note -- presentation is a thing that's been complicated for me for a long time, and I'd like to work on that. I... am not going to fully go into detail, because I feel awkward trying to put it into words, but I'd really like to find clothes that make me feel like me, or at least satisfied with what I'm wearing. That's going to be a slow process, but I'm hoping I can work on it.
I'd like to start posting thoughts on things I watch/read/listen to/play. I like to talk about things, and I've been terrible about doing it. Not necessarily reviews, but even short notes of "hey, I finished this thing recently, [I thought it was great/it was disappointing/it made me cry/whatever]" would be something.
I want to comment more. I don't think I need to add to this -- I've been awful about this for years.
I'd also like to talk more about day-to-day and positive things going on. Hopefully if I get my license sorted finally, we can go out more and maybe I can talk about that. I'd... ideally like to be sad or twitchy less, but honestly, it helps me a tiny bit to get that stuff out, and realistically, it's not going anywhere quite yet, so if I can't lighten up on having the bad stuff going on, I'd like to offer more positivity to balance it.
I want to start learning things, and I'd like to talk about learning things. The same with improving things, actually. I want to start vidding and podficcing, I'd like to start learning to play my hand drum, I want to do filk more, I want to start working on my voice again (I'd actually kind of love to record myself singing sometimes, but hell if I know if I'll ever feel comfortable with that again), I want to start cooking more and branching out with what and how I cook, I want to tentatively poke trying to learn art. I don't know how much of this I'll really manage, but if I can even do a couple of them, it would be nice, because most of it's things I've wanted to do for a long time.
I want to do and post creative things more often. Or even just talk about creative things I'd like to do, be that worldbuilding stuff, fic ideas, in-progress snippets, or whatever.
And I want to keep an organized tag system. Because I like tags, dammit.
I'm not going to bother to do a more indepth about me, because 1) I am so bad at explaining myself without rambling ridiculous amounts about everything ever, and 2) I expect that at least for now, almost everybody I add is coming from the old journal. But I like to do something that feels like, I don't know, marking the change, when I start new journals, and I have thoughts on this so -- instead I'm going to talk about goals. Specifically things I'd like to be better at talking about on here, and things I'd like to do online more in general.
So here goes:
First of all, I want to take more pictures. This is a thing I've had feelings about for ages now, but every time I try I just... fall flat. For some reason, I have some real brain blocks up about taking pictures of my life, and especially of myself; and then I regret the fact that I have none, or that I don't document special occasions or things I want to remember. It's a strange, complicated thing in my brain, but I want to do it.
I'm kind of hoping that with everything changing, with the new apartment and new places and all that, I can make myself do this a little bit. Even if I don't know how great I'll be at taking pictures of myself, I'd like to at least try to have pictures of things around me, sometimes.
On a tangential and non-online note -- presentation is a thing that's been complicated for me for a long time, and I'd like to work on that. I... am not going to fully go into detail, because I feel awkward trying to put it into words, but I'd really like to find clothes that make me feel like me, or at least satisfied with what I'm wearing. That's going to be a slow process, but I'm hoping I can work on it.
I'd like to start posting thoughts on things I watch/read/listen to/play. I like to talk about things, and I've been terrible about doing it. Not necessarily reviews, but even short notes of "hey, I finished this thing recently, [I thought it was great/it was disappointing/it made me cry/whatever]" would be something.
I want to comment more. I don't think I need to add to this -- I've been awful about this for years.
I'd also like to talk more about day-to-day and positive things going on. Hopefully if I get my license sorted finally, we can go out more and maybe I can talk about that. I'd... ideally like to be sad or twitchy less, but honestly, it helps me a tiny bit to get that stuff out, and realistically, it's not going anywhere quite yet, so if I can't lighten up on having the bad stuff going on, I'd like to offer more positivity to balance it.
I want to start learning things, and I'd like to talk about learning things. The same with improving things, actually. I want to start vidding and podficcing, I'd like to start learning to play my hand drum, I want to do filk more, I want to start working on my voice again (I'd actually kind of love to record myself singing sometimes, but hell if I know if I'll ever feel comfortable with that again), I want to start cooking more and branching out with what and how I cook, I want to tentatively poke trying to learn art. I don't know how much of this I'll really manage, but if I can even do a couple of them, it would be nice, because most of it's things I've wanted to do for a long time.
I want to do and post creative things more often. Or even just talk about creative things I'd like to do, be that worldbuilding stuff, fic ideas, in-progress snippets, or whatever.
And I want to keep an organized tag system. Because I like tags, dammit.