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fullupwithfire) wrote2020-12-01 09:05 pm
fullupwithfire) wrote2020-12-01 09:05 pm
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General things + December Talking Meme #1
1. NaNo final total: 30,724! I definitely expect writing to slow down a little, but I have goals for December, and I already wrote today.
I'm vaguely considering signing up for GYWO or inkingitout for next year, but I'm not sure. Both of their lowest tiers is 75k, which is a little less than double what I've done this year, so I think I might be able to do it if I keep as I've been going, but I keep warbling between thinking something to keep track on might be nice and actually keep me going, and worrying that the extra pressure might end up stopping me.
2. I probably do not need to link the Elliot Page news. Usually stuff like this just kind of gets me going "oh cool" in passing, but this one is hitting me surprisingly deep (in a good way) for some reason. I don't know if it's it being someone who I recognize and whose work I know this time around, or if I'm just particularly full of identity feelings lately, or what, but I just keep seeing things about of it and getting little happy-flail waves of this person is like me, how awesome is that?
3. We had our first snow yesterday! It snowed pretty much all day. I am cold enough that I'm wearing two sweatshirts, but I'm loving it. :D
And now: December Talking Meme!
Exactly how ideal are we talking, here, is my answer.
I think my deep, deep down, 'if I could rearrange the world and somehow fix it up so I could do exactly what I wanted to' unobtainable dream is still doing musical theater on Broadway. The amount of things I would have to change to make that even slightly possible are astronomical even before we consider the chance involved in that job -- being financially stable enough to live in New York, being good at networking, being brave enough to go on auditions, and also probably both my vocal and body type, because roles for people who look like me and female-presenting voices with my range are scarce, just to start with. But. I love singing. I love singing in a way that conveys emotion or tells stories. And I really, really love singing and being heard by people.
I guess "musician with a weird, folksy, story-heavy act" would also suffice, honestly. I would love to be a part of something like The Mechanisms, or have a circle of fans ala Heather Dale or SJ Tucker's following. I do not sing well enough for this or play any instruments or know how to write music, but it would be really neat.
Within more reasonable parameters -- honestly, I'm not sure I have a less ridiculously unobtainable dream job at this point? Maybe if I was less anxious in an ideal world, I'd have stuck with ASL interpreting. Or be able to seriously look at editing and figure how much I actually want to do it vs just feeling like it's something I'm okay enough at to be an acceptable goal.
In an ideal world where I was more mentally/physically healthy, though, I'd definitely be volunteering for stuff, too. I'd love to do volunteer work with kids somehow, specifically. I've done a lot of it and I really love doing it, I just don't think I'd want to make a career out of it or being the main adult in charge of a room full of children.
December meme list -- there's 23 open days still, including the next few. If I don't get more questions, I'm still going to try to post at least most days, though I have no idea what. Dragging up one of the other questions, or maybe I'll show some of my bullet journal spread stuff, because I like how December's stuff turned out. We'll see what I'm up for tomorrow.
I'm vaguely considering signing up for GYWO or inkingitout for next year, but I'm not sure. Both of their lowest tiers is 75k, which is a little less than double what I've done this year, so I think I might be able to do it if I keep as I've been going, but I keep warbling between thinking something to keep track on might be nice and actually keep me going, and worrying that the extra pressure might end up stopping me.
2. I probably do not need to link the Elliot Page news. Usually stuff like this just kind of gets me going "oh cool" in passing, but this one is hitting me surprisingly deep (in a good way) for some reason. I don't know if it's it being someone who I recognize and whose work I know this time around, or if I'm just particularly full of identity feelings lately, or what, but I just keep seeing things about of it and getting little happy-flail waves of this person is like me, how awesome is that?
3. We had our first snow yesterday! It snowed pretty much all day. I am cold enough that I'm wearing two sweatshirts, but I'm loving it. :D
And now: December Talking Meme!
Dec 01: In an ideal world, what would you be doing with your life? (from
Exactly how ideal are we talking, here, is my answer.
I think my deep, deep down, 'if I could rearrange the world and somehow fix it up so I could do exactly what I wanted to' unobtainable dream is still doing musical theater on Broadway. The amount of things I would have to change to make that even slightly possible are astronomical even before we consider the chance involved in that job -- being financially stable enough to live in New York, being good at networking, being brave enough to go on auditions, and also probably both my vocal and body type, because roles for people who look like me and female-presenting voices with my range are scarce, just to start with. But. I love singing. I love singing in a way that conveys emotion or tells stories. And I really, really love singing and being heard by people.
I guess "musician with a weird, folksy, story-heavy act" would also suffice, honestly. I would love to be a part of something like The Mechanisms, or have a circle of fans ala Heather Dale or SJ Tucker's following. I do not sing well enough for this or play any instruments or know how to write music, but it would be really neat.
Within more reasonable parameters -- honestly, I'm not sure I have a less ridiculously unobtainable dream job at this point? Maybe if I was less anxious in an ideal world, I'd have stuck with ASL interpreting. Or be able to seriously look at editing and figure how much I actually want to do it vs just feeling like it's something I'm okay enough at to be an acceptable goal.
In an ideal world where I was more mentally/physically healthy, though, I'd definitely be volunteering for stuff, too. I'd love to do volunteer work with kids somehow, specifically. I've done a lot of it and I really love doing it, I just don't think I'd want to make a career out of it or being the main adult in charge of a room full of children.
December meme list -- there's 23 open days still, including the next few. If I don't get more questions, I'm still going to try to post at least most days, though I have no idea what. Dragging up one of the other questions, or maybe I'll show some of my bullet journal spread stuff, because I like how December's stuff turned out. We'll see what I'm up for tomorrow.
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